Take two. Or thirty-seven?
Yeah, that last attempt didn’t quite work. Here I am re-inventing myself and re-committing myself to all things blog yet again. Maybe this time it will stick. For anyone left reading, my humble thanks for your interest. I’ll do my best to not disappoint.
Life has just been nuts these last few months. Work is crazy, but wonderful. I’ve gotten to travel a bit and catch up with some old friends in the process, which has been a blessing. I’ve also been coming to some realizations (some forced, some by soul-searching) about my life in general, which I will share with you in the coming days. Not tonight though, it’s 1:20 AM and I need to sleep. Realization #1: I need to get on a more regular sleep schedule. I suppose drink coffee at 7:30 PM doesn’t really facilitate sleepiness at reasonable hours. Oh well. Off to insomnia I go. More tomorrow night.
You can call it a comeback if you want…
Alright, I need some place to vent a few things and to just let out my thoughts in general. So once again, here I am. Lately I’ve been wading through my emotions and slowly figuring out that I need to focus on myself and my happiness, and learning to enjoy the freedoms that come with not being attached. I’m finding it a bit lonely at times, so I’m finding ways to fill my time and keep my mind active. Part of that includes being intentional in doing things I enjoy. So, I’m planning on getting back into the pool to add some variety to my exercise schedule. I teach cycle 3 times a week and am starting to feel like I don’t get as much out of it as I did when I started. So, I’m going to try swimming and probably running too. I’m signed up for a 5k at the end of the month, so we’ll make an attempt and see how I do.
Desperately seeking productivity
I seem to have a problem with procrastinating. I can make a mean “to do” list, but it’s difficult for me to focus enough to actually get things done. I’m not lazy, I just get horribly distracted. Does anyone else have this problem? Any suggestions on how to fix it?
“Guaranteed”
From the soundtrack to Into The Wild, music and lyrics by Eddie Vedder. Simply beautiful…
On bended knee is no way to be free
lifting up an empty cup I ask silently
that all my destinations will accept the one that’s me
so I can breath
Circles they grow and they swallow people whole
half their lives they say goodnight to wives they’ll never know
got a mind full of questions and a teacher in my soul
so it goes…
Don’t come closer or I’ll have to go
Holding me like gravity are places that pull
If ever there was someone to keep me at home
It would be you…
Everyone I come across in cages they bought
they think of me and my wandering
but I’m never what they thought
got my indignation but I’m pure in all my thoughts
I’m alive…
Wind in my hair, I feel part of everywhere
underneath my being is a road that disappeared
late at night I hear the trees
they’re singing with the dead
overhead…
Leave it to me as I find a way to be
consider me a satellite forever orbiting
I knew all the rules but the rules did not know me
guaranteed…
A little help?
I’m not sure who reads this, but does anyone know how to post pictures on WordPress without them being insanely large? Thanks.
Fairbanks City Transit System 142
I saw the movie Into The Wild last weekend and am now reading the book. I have to say there’s something about taking off and hiking out into nature that sounds very appealing to me right now. Much of the film is focused on Chris McCandless’ efforts to break free from the restrictions and expectations of society. I can SO relate to that. I only feel poorly about myself and my situation when I consider where other people expect me to be at this point. Why is it that I’m so focused on what other people think of me? Why do I put so much stock in their opinions instead of my own? Just a little thought to mull over…
Mizzou-RAH! Mizzou-RAH! Mizzou-RAH! TIGERS!
Yesterday was a long day, but a great one. It started out around 6:30 am. I got up and drove with my fellow Tiger friend Terri and her fiance Matt to be one of the crazies in the background of ESPN’s College GameDay broadcast from Arrowhead. It was cold, it was snowing but it was awesome. After two and a half hours, we got to watch Lee Corso don Truman’s headgear and pick the Tigers to win versus kU. Smart man, that Lee Corso. There were lots of clever signs, some of them moderately inappropriate, but clever nonetheless.
After CollegeGameDay, I headed back home to warm up and gear up for some serious tailgating. My family brought the grill, some brats, brisket and beers. Man, was it cold though! We hit the parking lot as soon as it was open around 3:00 and stayed until about 6:30 when we headed into the stadium for what was the greatest football game I’ve ever seen. Seriously. Total domination by the Tigers for a good 3 quarters. Then it got a little interesting in the 4th and we let them get a bit too close for comfort, but Mizzou showed poise and steadiness as we hung on to beat #2 kU. And today, we’re Big XII North champs and ranked #1 in the country. Next up is the Big XII Championship against #9 Oklahoma in San Antonio. One game at a time… I’ll post pictures to my Flickr page as soon as I can get them uploaded to my laptop.
GO TIGERS!
For a recap of the game, click here.
In the spirit of the day
I’m thankful for:
- family that puts up with me because they want to, not because they have to
- friends that know me well enough to call me out on my bullshit
- music that puts words to feelings I can’t figure out how to express
- opportunities that you don’t want, but deep down you really need
- books that take my mind off of life entirely
- possibilities
- fleece, scarves, mittens and cold weather
- health and being able to go to the gym and work off stress
- my new car
